Sometimes I feel alone even when I am surrounded by people I know. Sometimes I feel alone when I’m walking in a crowd of people. Sometimes I feel alone even though I know people care and would be there for me in a minute. I feel alone all the time. Alone in my thoughts, my worries, my prayers. I know people want me to let them in. I know people want to be there and support me along the way. I know , I know, I know. That doesn’t erase the ache and pain I feel inside and the loneliness that oozes from my soul. I can’t explain it, I can’t stop it, and I can’t apologize for it. This is where I am. This is how I feel. I miss my husband, my partner, my best friend. He is busy right now. Busy with the fight of his life. And I am in awe of his strength and determination. He is busy. I understand that. But I miss him. And that is my truth right now. So I cry a tear for him and a tear for me because we can not be together and that is all I want. That is all I worry about it. All I pray for.
Loneliness is…
Widow with Wings 
Having walked a piece of your journey in the past myself, I know the truth behind your words. Find and use whatever it is that will bring you some peace and comfort. Through sharing of your thoughts and emotions, hopefully you see the true strength that you have…..especially in a situation that leave you (and everyone) feeling so utterly powerless. Hugs to you…and your family!