Sometimes I wish there were more hours in the day so I could get more done. But then I realize what would I honestly do with that time? Would I accomplish more, or simply waste more time? I don’t have the answer to that. I just wish there wasn’t so much that I want to do everyday. I start off my day with a handy-dandy to do list and instead of happily crossing things off, the list tends to grow as the day goes along. I feel like I have no control over what is happening around me, let alone to me. Its like the waves of life come crashing in at the same time…always at the same time, and I can feel them pulling me under as I fight to keep my head above the water. The more you fight, the worse it tends to get. I have to remind myself to take a deep breath before I lose it all and just go with it…Ride the waves and try to enjoy the ride. Sometimes a little splash, or a quick dunk in an ocean of the unknown can be refreshing and rewarding. Not only can it make you feel appreciation for the security of the normal routine of life, but it can help you build strength, character and a new perspective on the world around you.
Yeah that sounds so easy…right? Hell no. When the waves start to break and you are sitting in the middle of it all, who thinks about all that they will learn from this? Nobody that’s who. Well at least I know I don’t realize it until way later. I am trying to focus on the here and now and enjoy where I am at and enjoy what I am doing. If I am constantly worrying about what is next, I am always falling behind. This is true with my to do lists. They never end. And I don’t enjoy any of it.
I always tell my girls at school that it’s not about the final answer, but it’s about the process of getting to it. I need to listen to that in relation to my life. I’m sure you’ve heard this one as well…Lifes not a destination, it’s a journey. Well I want to start that journey, better yet I am ready to realize the journey I have been on for the past 39+ years. Because haven’t we all been on a journey since the moment we were born. It’s only when we realize it that we can start enjoying the sights along the way. The view from my window is looking good!
Widow with Wings 